Sunday, July 21, 2013

Winter, Spring, Summer Ranger

Dale here,

I started Ranger School on Feb. 4th (Super Bowl Sunday) after going through the pre-Ranger School course twice -- that's when I proposed to Lori. The whole time we in-processed the RI's wouldn't give us any details about the game, and generally enjoyed messing with us. All of the Benning - Rogers phase is a game, it's called RAP week. During RAP week you take a standard pt test, land navigation, a 2 mile buddy run -- Malvesti obstacle course at the end of the run -- and a standard 12 miler with a 35 lb ruck in under 3 hours.
The biggest things that make guys drop during the Rogers phase is the pt test and land navigation. Malvesti is disgusting, Georgia clay/mud that guys have crawled through for years. All kinds of nasty things inhabit the Malvesti pit but we get through it. Then we go out to camp Darby.

Camp Darby is the first real test. Your soldier will find out what he's made of generally while getting rained on for several days straight with a few uniforms. Eleven days in a field environment being wet, hungry, and tired will challenge him to dig deep and find what keeps him in this horrible place. I got rained on for nearly the entire time I was at camp Darby. I remember several nights where we got no sleep after coming back from our mission because we didn't clean our weapons to the standard. We stood around watching other platoons eat, and go to their sleeping area. We couldn't go because our weapons weren't clean enough so tell him to clean the crew served weapons until he can't clean it anymore.
Finally I got my 8 hour pass after finding out I got a go, one of my happiest moments in Ranger School. On my pass I bought a new set of boots, and did 4 loads of laundry with one of my squad mates. We ate and I spent $500 between food and refitting to go into mountains. In the 75th Ranger Regiment, privates have to elevate their feet when doing push ups because we haven't been through the Mountains phase of Ranger School. I knew this would be the hardest phase and felt a bit anxious, when I came back I prepared myself mentally for the hardest 21 days of school -- if I only knew what awaited me. We got on the bus the following morning, got an MRE and drove up to Dahlonega Georgia.

Ranger School is a funny thing, because if your soldier goes straight through he will have a hard time remembering small details about the day to day activities in each phase, and the specifics of who did what. The first time I went through the Mountains phase I got through the first 3 days of the FTX. That means I did all the stuff at the beginning of Mountains until I went into the field, basically the first two weeks. In the field I remember walking with my ruck at night under nods and hallucinating that I was walking down the hallway to my parents bedroom. Every time we stopped I'd fall asleep standing up, and nearly get left behind when they started walking again. In winter we walked through water a few times in one night when the air temp was 33 degrees (F). We got tents after the walk but it took me an hour to change out of wet clothes into a new and dry uniform when we got the chance I was so lethargic. The next day I got caught eating Gatorade powder (without water) and got an SOR, or Special Observation Report, and would be pulled out of the field the next morning to recycle. It's crushing to find out you're getting recycled, especially for something that's pretty gay and undeserving like eating Gatorade powder. The 2nd time through Mountains I failed patrols. I neared the end of my rope the night we came out then and told myself, "I can't keep doing this" but I stuck it out for Lori.
What you need to know as a wife/fiance/girlfriend about Mountains: it sucks donkey dick. I'm not joking, straight sucks. Any encouragement you send will help tremendously, generally in the form of smells and pictures. No I'm not saying send obscene pictures, just something of yourself so he can snap back to the reality that people outside of Ranger School support him because there will be times when he will think about quitting. He may not act on them, but the thought will cross his mind I guarantee it. Now that care packages with food in them are not allowed in Mountains, if you want to send anything T-shirts and socks are good. Gum is also a good thing to send more of in letters and most of the RI's don't care about it as long as its a reasonable amount in the letter.
Also, what not to say is, "just do what the RI's say and you'll be fine" when I heard that I just wanted to scream into the phone, "bitch! you don't know anything about this school, that's not how it works!!!" (Lori didn't say this)  I was so frustrated when I heard that. Ranger school is all a dice roll, it's not about doing what you're told, so when you're soldier gets recycled just tell him you love him and you'll be there no matter what happens and how long it takes to get through it. Come back with your tab, or on it.

I got out of Mountains with the 3rd attempt and got down to Florida. We jumped into the Florida phase, I got drug about 50 meters before I got free and then it was on. Your soldier won't get any mail until after he gets out of the FTX because he will go into the field on day 6 of Florida. The field experience is 9 straight days. Here's what happens: he'll go to Florida, get a class on reptiles, class on boat movements, get a class on 1 rope bridge, he'll discover how awesome French toast is every day, do some practical exercises, and then go to the field. Out of the 9 days in the field, nothing extremely challenging will happen until day 7 (a Tuesday) when he goes into Boiling Creek, the first swamp movement. Anything valuable he owns he needs to waterproof 3x, because the swamp destroys everything and he will never forget the smell of the swamp. After boiling, he will go on a "long walk" depending on how much of the swamp movement he did, either way he will be walking about all day either through the swamp, or on a road. He's gonna be suckin for a little while, and not happy with life. All of Mountains and Florida are raids, ambushes, and Movement to Contact so every day there will be a movement to chance contact, and then a mission. The day after boiling (Florida) will be more difficult due to the movement, then he'll go into the Weaver. If your soldier is about to go into Florida, tell him the Weaver will suck, its only 400-800 meters for the entire movement depending on the day. The factors that determine how far into the weaver they go depends on the water temp (winter) heat, and water levels. There's a possibility he could see some topless women if he goes through at the right time of summer though. They're generally swamp hill billies.
Patrols generally go well for about 70-80% of guys that get down to Florida and if he recycles the phase he has a high chance of graduating. It's not always the case though, so he can't slack off or stop trying.
I have a hard time describing what it feels like to get peered after coming out of the FTX in Florida, I felt crushed, like someone had cut me off at the knees with an ax. I lost all motivation to go forward, but your soldier needs something to keep him motivated. I kept Lori's pictures in my pocket ALL the time, there was never any time when her picture was not on me. She kept me going when I couldn't see the light forward. You will provide more inspiration to your soldier than you think. Keep him inspired every opportunity you get and he'll get to the end.
I guarantee whatever pain you and him are going through while he's away, it ends. It will feel like forever some days and you may want him to quit so he can come home and kill spiders for you -- or whatever -- but it will end and you will appreciate your relationship ten times more than you did before.

Good Luck, Rangers Lead The Way
















Tuesday, July 16, 2013

Reunited and it feels so good!!!

since my last blog post a lot has changed for me! Dale has returned home, and i of course followed right behind him! Sadly his 7 month journey ended in a double peer drop...This has been a crazy adventure for us both, and i admire the love of my life for being so strong and sticking it out for so long. He has come home covered in cuts scrapes and scars, and he needs some time to heal and gain back some muscle he lost. Because of his dedication to the pursuit of the tab he will have the chance to go back in about a year and try again, and I along with everyone else who has followed his progress know that he will make it this time, and with flying colors.


So today is a Tuesday, i flew out to WA. on a Friday....finally got in on Saturday! such a long crazy journey! my plane was delayed, and then i had to stay in a hotel in Memphis, from Memphis flew to salt lake city Utah and then to Seattle...throughout the entire trip i was pretty numb tot he fact that i would be seeing Dale again, i didn't really believe it was happening until the wheels hit the tarmac at the sea-tac airport and then i started to get really excited and nervous! it was the first time i would be seeing him in 158 days....i navigated my way around the airport, and then finally we were in the same place....i waited by luggage carousel number 5, he was by number 2....i was to stay put while he came to me....the 30 seconds it took for him to get to me seemed like hours! and then finally i looked up and there he was, standing 10 feet away from me with a huge smile on his face. i stayed put while he closed the distance between us.....158 days really is too long. So not that we are back together, it is time to go locate my luggage....we look in the big piles of suitcases laying around, but none belonged to me :( at this point i felt so gross! i just wanted a shower but all the things i needed was in my checked bag.....i had to wait for my bag to fly in on the next plane, it was coming in about 3 or so hours later...we decided we would drive around so Dale could show me some of Washington--he had some surprises for me. He rented a car that he was pretty pleased with and he couldn't wait to show me, he walked me out to the parking garage and what do you think was waiting for me? a beautiful cherry red mustang, i knows i like my cars "sexual" (a little inside joke between us) the car was really nice, we even got complimented on it as we drove down the highway, lol. My bag finally came in by almost 7 pm that day, we got a hotel room and i got cleaned up-and then he took me to Seattle! I love this man...i was so hungry, sleep deprived and stressed that i know i wasn't very fun to be around, the way people were driving was scaring me so bad! I really have to work on not freaking out so much.

so sunday roles around and it is time to buy our own car....this ball is rolling fast! no rest for the weary! we looked around at a few places and test drove a few cars, i knew Dale wasn't sold on any of them, that is until he set his eyes on a jeep grand cherokee. There was a little sparkle in his eyes, yup this was gonna be our car. we tested it out and it passed all the tests, we are no the proud owners of a jeep. we drove off the lot and straight to the airport to return the absurdly expensive rental car and get a days use worth of money back....

Monday brings Dales first day back to work! he was a little nervous but it all went alright. When he came home we went straight to the pierce county auditors office and got our marriage license!!! i was so nervous, but it all turned out ok, and i couldn't be happier! Next it was time to finalize our apartment hunt, we had really been looking online for the past 5 months, we had done some chatting with a few of them, but ultimately we decided on a place that was month to month so we could save for something better while not having to stay in a hotel.

Today, tuesday, we go bed shopping and buy some cleaning supplies, we are gonna clean that place top to bottom and start the first steps into making it our home.

Thursday-A wedding!


so far this is it! Dale survived RS and so did I! I love knowing that at the end of the day i won't be sleeping alone anymore, when Dale leaves work he gets to come home to me! I don't know who thinks they have the biggest prize, him or me....i guess we can both agree that we are pretty lucky to have each other.
Together again!


YAY!!!




Monday, June 17, 2013

Darby, Mountains, Mountains,Mountains, Florida, Florida....

Class of:
4-13
5-13
6-13
7-13

What ever it takes he will complete his goal in getting that tab, and in so complete his childhood dream of becoming an Army Ranger (tabbed).


He is strong in mind and body, I continue to be amazed at the person he is. I will thank God everyday for his life and the luck of our two paths meeting. i thought i knew what love was, and then i met Dale.

class starts back up this saturday...he has to endure another 16 grueling days in the field and in the swamps. God willing this will be our very last phase. i have a really good feeling about this one.

Back in the game!!

we are now back at it! re-doing mountains for the third time and you know what they say, the third time is a charm! and! Dale got a 7 out of 7 on his knot test! one proud lady right here!

Sunday, June 16, 2013

things i wish i knew when he started RS

When my guy started RS I considered myself to be pretty well prepared, and I was for the most part. I knew he would be gone for a while, I knew the basic address for the first phase and thanks to him I also had 3 books to read about RS, a show to watch, and a support group to join! He gave me the books, told me about the show and the group! But the things he couldn't give me I learned on my own and with the help of the other wives in the Facebook group I am a member of.
What I had to learn about RS:
 The first phase known as the Benning phase or Darby SUCKS! I hate to say it, but DO NOT expect any mail this phase…I couldn't understand why I wasn't getting any letters! I know my guy and I know if he can write he WILL write no questions about that. I was a complete mess, it was ridiculous…in reality he had sent me two letters during this phase and I had sent him…oh about 1 a day for everyday of Benning phase… I would suggest not doing that because I am still receiving returned letters from Darby and he went through Darby in February, it’s June. I suggest sending one letter a week while he is there. My guy only received two things from me while in his first phase, and that was his care package and a bubble mailer of pictures and he didn't even get those until his 8 hour pass after Darby.
Darby is a crappy phase for all of us! But once it’s over it’s over! After Darby is Mountains, and guess what! The mail system works so much better!! When my Ranger went through phase 2 (the first time) I got my two Darby letters and 4 letters from the second phase…unfortunately my guy recycled Mountains and ended up doing phase 2 Three times! The second time through I received 8 letters! Wow! What sucked about him recycling the second time around was The Best Ranger Competition… he had to sit out for like, 5 weeks! I was lucky enough to talk to him every single night (except one night) sometimes 4 times a night, it was amazing. And he also sent me letters!  12 of them and one package. On his third and final trip through Mountains he sent me 4 letters.
Communication in mountains is so much better than any other phase, so enjoy it! Use this phase to send daily letters!  And know that some of the mornings your guy is eating blueberry pancakes and he’s loving it!
One thing to remember is that even if you don’t know his SQD, or PLT the letters will still get to him, just be sure to have the address written correctly and make sure you include his rank and name and it will all be ok.
Phase 3, known as Florida, or Swamps…this is the current phase my Ranger is in. I have received 2 letters from him, one written halfway between phase 2 & 3 and one written on the first day of Florida’s FTX. He told me in that second letter that it would probably be the last one he sent out, I really hope it is because that means I get to see him!! So as far as sending letters this phase, I sent one before he made it to Florida, I’m not sure if he got it or if it is waiting for him for the end of the FTX or not. I also sent a letter a few days ago telling him about  my travel plans, when my plane was landing, when I would be in Columbus, and what hotel I was staying at so he could meet me there if I didn't make it to pick him up for his first pass in time.


another thing to keep in mind:

I know waiting can SUCK! but please DO NOT call staff duty! your guy will call if he recycles. if you do not get a call by the end of the weekend you can rest easy and know that he is most likely in his next phase. 

Wednesday, April 17, 2013

recycles,ranger competitions and waiting! always waiting!

With a second mountain recycle under our belts all we can do now is hope and pray this is the last one. If he gets another one he will be sent home to come back and try again at a later date. hope and pray when ranger school starts back up this time he makes it all the way through, no more recycles. the number of days we have left are more than the number of days of ranger school all together!!! that would be thanks to the best ranger competition.


my life has been in a bit of an up roar lately....i a currently staying with a friend in NC and there ain't no tan berets on fort bragg.

here is a plus side to the ranger competition and this looooong recycle status. PHONE CALLS!!!! he calls me every night, sometimes 3 times a night! we are trying to plan our wedding over the phone! silly us!

Sunday, April 14, 2013

a second chance at Mountains

i got another letter in the mail today! i was so excited! it was dated the 7th and post dated the 9th, today is the 14th, this letter took forever to get to me! lol. i am including a little bit of his letter, he wrote this as he was in recycle land, telling me how it was in mountains FTX


"day 2, it's crazy what happens in the field when it starts raining. no one wants to move, take a knee or lay down if it's cold and rainy. so i've been gone for eh, like a month now my hands are pretty messed up and it's mountains FTX day 2. another ambush day, we were so busy i had no time to write in my book. i did security at the ORP which is our staging area for an ambush. we picked up and went to our next location, it started to get cold then, being cold and dry sucks. now imagine being cold and walking through a small river in 33 degree weather. cadre said we could harden ourselves to an extent, but at some point hypothermia will get you. so we walked through the creek a few times, the cadre decided it was too cold to sleep in a patrol base. at one point i fell in the water and was wet to my knees. we were gonna get tents but we had to go through one more creek to get to the tent. so we get to the tent form up and get in the tent. it was about 15 ft wide 30 ft long and there was 42 of us plus our stuff. i was so numb it took me an hour to change into a whole dry uniform. i can change into uniform in under 15 minutes on a regular day, typically 5-10, but i was messed up."


thinking about him practically killing himself out there in mountains breaks me into a million pieces. i know why he is doing this, and he and i both agree it is better that he does this now and get it over with...it doesn't make it any easier. i am making it a day at a time...he told me he takes it a meal at a time i have over a month until his new 'tentative' graduation . i just have to keep going....just keep going, they say Ranger School isn't for the faint of heart, well that goes for us significant other too.

although the time apart really really sucks i know it is all worth it, it is going to be so amazing when i get to look into his beautiful brown eyes again, when i can see that beautiful smile beaming across his beautiful face. when i can hug him and smell him again and here him tell me he loves me...that is something you don't realize how much you will miss. don't ever take it for granted, not a single second....when i finally get to be in the arms of my Ranger i am never going to let him go, i am going to hold on to every hug, every kiss, every stare. no matter what he wants to do, if he wants to run around in a parking lot some where acting absolutely stupid, i will be there next to him....it doesnt matter. i cant wait! the countdown is on and each day i make it through is one day closer to the love of my life!!!

Silly Lori, bad at math!

so far this week i have managed to make two major math flubs! one, not so serious, unless you count my sanity! was mistakenly thinking i only had 4 more weeks of missing my ranger, ah i was wrong! i have 5! the other mistake....i have a traffic ticket, i thought my court date was the 28th, guess what! i was wrong it was yesterday! i called to confirm the time of the court date and they told me i missed it, i asked if i could reschedule and the lady said (very rudely) "no you have already missed and rescheduled then missed again!" i said "no ma'am i didn't  the only time i have ever missed was yesterday and it was a mistake, i thought my court date was set for the 28th, the court rescheduled my last court date due to a clerical error, i have never missed! what am i supposed to do!? i have never been in trouble and i don't want a warrant because of a traffic ticket!!" the only thing she said was something about "but may....(i have no clue what that was about..) march 4th that's Monday." that was pretty much the end of the convo.....thank God i got it rescheduled, hope the judge doesn't rip me a new one! lol...i was turning pretty hysterical and i think she could tell....after i got off the phone i sat on my bed and cried...these little petty things are the ones that get to me the most, the ones i need my ranger for, to make me laugh about... how he can't have me going to jail :) his 'hardened' criminal...

one of the hardest things about him being in ranger school is not being able to talk to him, he always makes everything ok, and with out him i feel a little bit lost.....like i am just thrown out in this cruel mean world alone...i wish i had the luxury of a mother who cared more, or friends who like me, didn't have much of a life, lol..i work and i sit at home, i guess that is part of being an adult.

i knew getting into a relationship with a man in the army would be hard, i wondered if i was tough enough...i know i would go to any lengths to love this man, so i guess i am strong enough. because here i am. only 38 more days! that is 5 weeks 3 days! yay

Delivered!

YAY! his package is waiting for him at the fort benning post office! i am so excited!

Thursday, April 4, 2013

GO! no go?

this is phone call eve! so with the phone call looming all i can do is freak out! of course there is a side of me that is scared, if he recycles he has a 6 week wait (best ranger competition ) and then another 6 weeks for Mountains and Florida....so if he recycles it will be a little over 20 weeks that he will be away...that is 5 months. in his most recent letter he said "I'll call you but wont have much time, so be honest if i chose to recycle and stay the 6 weeks, even though it's painful... could you do it?" could i do it? that is a loaded question...i know i am going to be a mess.....i have yet to learn how to deal with separation like this....i could do it if i were able to hear his voice, that would make all the difference! but this is ranger school and that isnt an option, except  for about a minute and a half every 3 weeks (if you're lucky)....IF he calls and delivers the dreaded new i am going to tell him that it is going to be the hardest thing i have ever done...but i will do what i have to so that he can follow his dream, if he is willing to be the one who is actually IN ranger school i can be the one living out here in the real world...waiting. to tell you the truth it may very nearly kill me....as much as i don't want to admit this i am going to be a disgusting mess....staying in bed, crying, feeling sorry for myself mess.
i have to keep telling myself "everything in Gods time."
so i will tell him "it will be the hardest thing i have ever done, but i'm with you." the rest is up to him.

but i can't help but feel a sense of peace in my heart....i was driving today, right after getting a letter from Dale telling me he had a few mark....totally about to lose my cool, crying like a baby, when a voice in my head said "keep the faith" and the tears stopped. believe me or not, but i know where that voice came from. like i said everything in Gods time....a part of me knows i have no reason to worry....i've always been one to expect the worst, makes the best even better.

time is crawling.....i probably have a little over 24 hours to go. praying for that GO!!

Monday, April 1, 2013

some helpful stuff!

so here are just a few things i do and Dale really seems to like them
i send him gum only letters, he has had no problem getting them and it hasnt caused any issues thus far he says "your gum letter saved me!" i know a lot of the other ladies do this too and my guy said it was "ingenious" i tape the gum down, i have mentioned this in an earlier post but it never hurts to remind everyone! i also buy manila  envelopes 5X7 size
what i like to do is take a piece of notebook paper and fold it in half then i tape each piece of gum to the paper, i can get about 30 piece on one sheet i also like to write on each wrapper what the flavor of the gum is, that way he can easily identify which piece he would like to eat first.

another thing i did that i think you should consider when your Ranger is at ranger school is a phone card. i bought an at&t phone card with 150 minutes on it at wal-mart for $9.96 it is re loadable also. now in order to be able to reload the card you would need to keep the card so what i did was write down all the instructions on a piece of paper on which i also included my cell number, my moms number, my friends number, and my work number. i then "laminated" it with tape and sent that to him. this way he can use the card but i can reload it if needed.

this is helpful to and i got this idea from the Ranger wives support group i am a member of
a bank account GO or RECYCLE code a purchase of or withdrawal of $40. for a GO and one of $20. if he recycles. this only works if you have access to his bank account. i do not have access to my guys account but his mother is his financial guardian while he is at ranger school so i told her the code and she is on the look out.

i think it is very important to keep a clear line of communication with family and friends of your Ranger, remember as hard as it is sometimes, you are not the only one who is suckin' right now, the first thing i do when i have any news from Dale is contact his mom. so if and when he calls me this week to let me know the first thing i will do after we hang up is let his mom know what is going on.

if i think of anything else i will be sure to blog it, but for now this is it.....i hope everyone is having a great spring so far! come on warmer weather!

Almost done?!?

the recycle was really hard on me. God willing we only have 25 days left, and only 23 until i am in Ga. again!! i am in love with Georgia! it will always be on of my favorite places on earth, maybe it is the sun, maybe it is the people...Georgia will always be special for me and my Ranger.

he is nearing the end of mountains and i am expecting a phone call on friday or saturday! from his letters i have gathered that he has been doing really well. i am expecting a GO! the class that he was originally in just finished Fl. they will be graduating this week!!! i am so happy for you ladies! congratulations to you and your Rangers!!! take your men home and baby them! make sure they eat good!!

of course the thought "that could have been Dale...:(" crosses my mind, but i need to be a little bit stronger...envy and bitterness are ugly and aren't two qualities i want to have, not when i have so much to be thankful for! here is a list of things i am thankful for:


  1. i have a man who loves me for me. i could go on for pages about how amazing he is, but if you read my blog i am sure you already know how i feel about him! lol
  2. i have been lucky to receive 15 letters so far each about 5 pages, some even longer! and i'm talking full notebook pages.
  3. although money is tight i have been lucky enough to be able to find a way to make it. my mother told me God would provide, she was right and i am grateful.
  4. Dale recycled and was lucky enough to get 2 whole weeks of healing, eating, and rest! he got to go back into mountains re energized and with a new attitude!
  5. i have a job that i love, it isn't my ideal job but i work with amazing people and i know that makes all the difference!
  6. i even have a few good friends!
  7. i have lost so much weight!
  8. my plane ticket is booked!

there are a lot of reasons to be happy and grateful. i am alive and healthy and those are two giant reasons.

anyway.....i am confident i will have good new for you all this weekend! so blog to you soon!

Thursday, March 7, 2013

I knew it could happen but i didn't see it coming!

MOUNTAIN PHASE RECYCLE! crap! yeah, you heard me!!!! I love my man, i will never stop being proud of him, so what does a recycle mean you ask? for me it means this....
  1. 49 days instead of 29 days until i can see the man i love
  2. it means a total of 82 days apart,that is almost 12 weeks. 
  3. it means being lost for 49 more days, with out him i feel alone. he came into my life and woke me up, i hurt physically with out him
it is hard with out him. but i am so proud of him, i love him, he is my hero! a gift from God that i am so grateful for. i feel sad for people who will never know this love....i would do anything for him, and i will never stop.

but all in all he is in good spirits, and as i said in one of my very first blogs, anything that we have to go through in the accomplishment of his dreams will mean nothing when i can hold him.


Wednesday, March 6, 2013

The letters have arrived!

have i told you guys how amazing my man is? he is so amazing! i have already received 4 letters! 2 from darby and 2 from mountains, each at least 4 pages long! he is hanging in there, but he is still having a hard time. there is a huge possibility he will recycle mountains...all i can say is Gods will be done....the only thing that gets me through the thought of him recycling is knowing God has a plan for all of us. here is a piece he wanted me to share on his facebook, i hope he wont mind me sharing it on my blog as well

Dear Lori, mom, dad, friends & family
I'm in mountains phase now. Ive learned a bit about myself from this school & generally this school isn't physically hard. I'm far from my breaking point physically, but mentally it's frustrating. Weather also really factors in there. 
We had church service tuesday night, after dinner & before bed. Anyone who knows anything about this school knows we become religious just to get out of the environment, or get food. I didn't pass the road march Tuesday, I had crappy MREs I couldn't trade & missed and opportunity for a major plus on knots. So I went to church. While most people slept, I read a little book with a verse for each day of ranger school. The chaplains service was good, he sang songs and talked about raising morale.
 Day 4 of ranger school, today is a good day to be reborn into Christ. I thought about this one for a while, keeping it in the back of my mind. At the end I waited to talk to the Chaplin. I had about 3 layers of snivel on, still suckin. I told him my name and sad I was def a summer ranger and have been hurting for calories and not so much sleep. I told him that I failed the road march and had to do it again, and I was suckin. I didn't know where I was going to find strength to get through all this crap. The Chaplin prayed with me and asked God for strength and endurance. I did what I had to outside to get in the barracks , and went to bed. 
We got up at the usual time, 4 am, when I woke up my knees were a little less swollen, my ankles were a little better too. My hands didn't hurt so bad, I felt better. We got our pancakes, it wasn't raining, my ruck was set up good. I had a dream with Lori in it. Nothing specific, but I saw her face, and was happy. On the road march I reflected that I had forgotten the same God that the Chaplin talked to, and that sent me to this school was the same God that showed me the way to Lori. I was still ok. I got to look around on the route and saw how pretty the mountains were when it wasn't rainy. I felt a bit like this was being reborn.

his words are beautiful and remind me where my strength comes from. i am so lucky to have such a beautiful, wonderful man in my life, and i will never stop being thankful for him. he is a true inspiration.

he tells me in his letters to hang in there, he tells me he is excited, as long as he doesnt get another minus he will move onto florida if he gets through on his first time we only have 30 more days of separation.
my heart aches, i know i need to be strong but i feel so alone right now. one of the few people i am close to who knows how i feel is so far away, she is a good friend of mine, married to a man in the army, she knows how i feel. or at least she can relate. i started writing this blog in hopes of helping other Ranger wives/fiances/girlfriends/mother/ect i dont know if anyone reads this blog at all. i think  if i could help, it would help me...
here are the very first letters i received, muddy and gritty thanks to malvesti!

Tuesday, February 26, 2013

my phone call!

the first call came in on friday! i should have known he passed, because he was calling on friday (recycles didn't get to call until the next day) i answered the phone and he said hi, he started talking about something and i was like "that's good and all but did you pass!?!?!?"  i could hear the smile spreading across his face and he said "yes." he told me he didn't receive any of my letters :( he said he was starting to worry i had forgotten about him, but he told him self "no i am pretty sure i asked her to marry me and she said yes" lol but on that friday he did get my package and the bubble envelope i sent him with our pictures in it. he said he was just walking around looking, hoping and he recognized my name before his own on a big brown box among a bunch of smaller ones! he picked it up surprised by its weight (22 lbs) turned to his buddies and said "fellas we are eating good on the car ride today!" he opened the box, first thing he saw was the blue peeps i picked out for him! he thought to him self, 'she really does love me!' Duh of course i do!! lol...he told me he shared with his buddies too:) he told me how all his joints hurt and he couldn't close his hands :( i am worried about my man out there, about all of our men....

my second phone call only lasted a few minutes, he was calling to tell me he was headed back to base, he didn't sound as excited as he did during the first phone call...he had a list of things that we needed to accomplish when he graduated, getting a place ect...he told me he had it all written down and he would mail it to me (i told him to copy it twice and send it twice lol) he told me i needed to be ready to jump on a plane at a moments notice....he kept telling me that everything would be ok, that we could do this, we just had a little bit longer to go! hang in there, hang in there, hang in there....he was trying to soothe me, and all i wanted to do was soothe him. i love this man, even tho he is the one out there killing himself he was still worried about me, how i was holding up, if i was ok. he is amazing! he told me he loved me three times before he got off the phone....i miss him so much.

Hang in there baby! I love you!
Our last night together until the end of ranger school!

Friday, February 22, 2013

SO PROUD OF MY RANGER!

HE PASSED! HE PASSED! HE PASSED! Moving onto mountains! i am so so so so so proud of him, and i even got a 51 minute phone call! i am one happy girl right now! he got his care package, he was so happy! he shared with his buddies too! he told me he only got one of my letters, which sucks, and he has sent out two to me, but i haven't gotten either one :( oh well i know he is ok and that is all i care about!

Monday, February 18, 2013

It is on its way!

ok, so i couldn't wait for USPS to open up tomorrow, so i went ahead and mailed the package UPS, the lady looked at me like i was crazy when i asked if i could pack it myself "we pack it for you, it's included in the price." "but i need to pack it with love!" lol. so the package weighed 22 lbs and will be at the fort Benning post office by Wednesday! just in time for the 8 hour pass, which i think is Friday or Saturday...i hope it gets to him! if not i am hoping he calls me so i can tell him to go get it! but i am going to let his mom know to tell him to go get it, in case he calls his family instead, either way as long as he gets it i will be happy! so the total cost of the contents of the package and the mailing of the package was about $90.00 and worth every penny. the thought of how happy he is going to be when he looks inside that box would be worth a million dollars, as i said before he is worth every single sacrifice. i have yet to get my first letter, i am hoping tomorrow will be the day! i am going insane over here! been spending lots of time with friends trying to take my mind off of it...i'm also getting a few extra hours at work, which is amazing, so at this point i am only missing out on four hours, at least for this week.....

Saturday, February 16, 2013

time stops for no one!

49 days left, that is 7 weeks. i underestimated how hard this was going to be.....i was planning on just working and spending time with my friends and family...good plan until they cut my hours at work! everyone is losing hours, with my now extra free time i am looking for a second job....

i know that in the grand scheme of things 49 days isn't that long, but for me it seems like a lifetime....i am still waiting on my first letter, i don't know if that is normal, i only know that it has been too long!

ok so i joined a group online for ranger wives/gf ect....i guess it is time to ship the first package, i have yet to receive a letter and i don't know what company he is in still...but i am sending it anyway. i also read that lots of ladies have yet to get a letter, so i feel so much better, just hope he is getting mine. i am going to the store after work tonight, i will take pictures and let you all see what i bought for him!

I am missing my ranger so much....but the group i joined is helping! they have pictures uploaded and everything!


ok so here is what i am sending in the first care package!


3 gatorades
10 snickers
10 crunch bars
10 kit-kats
3 fruit buddies
6 honey buns
banana chips
dried mangos
dried fruit trio (mango, kiwi, pineapple)
5 packs of gum
2 ice cubes (chocolate)
1 ring pop
1 cherry mash
blue peeps
i pack of tuna
1 can of pringles (loaded potato)
11 granola bars
beef jerky
13 slim jims
pepperonis
crunchy cheetos
white cheddar popcorn
gummy bears
4 cheese crackers
i think that is everything i put in there, i also included a 5 page letter! :)

i just really hope it gets to him, i wasn't sure exactly when to send the package and i am afraid i may be to late since i wont be able to send it until tuesday (day 16).....i also don't know which company he is in because i have yet to receive a letter from him letting me know, so although i have sent him about 10 letters i don't even know if he is getting them, i just hope his rank/ name and class number is enough(along with the address of course) i don't know how to find out what company he is in without him being the one to tell me....so here is to hoping.
anyway...i just hope he knows i haven't abandoned him! ok it is late here! i am going to be heading to bed soon, working and shopping took it out of me! :) it is after midnight, so only 47 days left! that is 6 weeks & 5 days!

Friday, February 8, 2013

who i am, who we are.

So i guess i should tell you all a little about myself, and my favorite man!

My name is Lori i am 25, my ranger, and the reason this blog is necessary is Dale, my best friend, glove (i'm his hand), future, blood type buddy and birthday buddy( we were both born September 14th 1987). Don't worry, we made sure we weren't brother and sister :)
people are always shocked when we tell them we were born on the exact same day, to the year, and that we also have the same blood type. what are the odds? he was how ever born he was born about 9 hours before me, so i guess technically he is older, which i think he is pretty smug about lol :)
we like to think that we couldn't exist in this world with out each other, and that is why we were born on the same day. every time i think i couldn't love him anymore than i already do, he does something and i fall even more in love with him.
 i can be most myself when i am with him, we are so goofy together. one of my favorite things about him is how he laughs at his own joke, like how when he tells the joke, he is laughing so hard he cant get the punch line out, I LOVE THAT!

What I am doing.

Ok so i am going to try and go through all the things i have done, or am doing pertaining to ranger school communication and stuff.
lets see if i can organize my thoughts....
so here are a few must buys:

  1. envelopes, i bought 3 kinds the longs ones, the regular sized ones and a pack of 2 5x6 bubble mailers for the pictures i sent (i got them all at big lots for $1.00 each, i work there btw)
  2. stamps (the 'forever' kind) and then a sheet of the 20 cent ones (if your letters are like mine you will need them both)
ok here are some suggested buys:


  1. gum (i bought 9 different flavors, i mail a few different flavors each time)
  2. a plastic bin to store your letters in( i got a clear 6 QT. bin with a lid for $1.00 at big lots)
  3. a pack of pens
  4. cute paper ( you can use any kind you want, i choose a note book with fancy paper so if i decided to put them in a scrapbook later it will look nice).
  5. self laminating pouches for pictures, this way they wont get ruined if the get wet. ( i bought the 4X6 size they were under $4.00 but they have other sizes at wal-mart too. make sure you buy the self sealing ones, other wise you need a special machine.)
  6. and i suggest you read this book it is nice to have:



ok, so that is what i have done so far....oh and about the gum, tape it down, that way it doesn't slide to one side and become to thick to send. and make sure it is caffeine free.

here are the address:

[Name and Rank]
4th Ranger Training Battalion
ATTN: Class [class number]
10850 Schneider Road
Fort Benning, GA 31905

Mountain/ Phase 2 Address:

[Name and Rank]
5th Ranger Training Battalion
ATTN: Class [class number]
1 Camp Merrill
Dahlonega, GA 30533-1802

Florida/ Phase 3 Address:

[Name and Rank]
6th Ranger Training Battalion
ATTN: Class [class number]
6069 Walkers Lane
Camp James E. Rudder
Eglin AFB, FL 32542

i think the most important thing to send your soldier is encouragement, love and support. let him know how proud you are and how much you love and miss him. i tell Dale all of this constantly, i know it will help him, and i know it will put a smile on his face. 



waiting for my soldier.


The alarm went off at 5:45 am, I was already awake. I didn't want the time to come for him to have to leave me. After about 10 minutes I finally convinced him he should get up. We got dressed grabbed his bags and headed to the car, loaded the car, and hit the road. we got to the ranger compound at about 6:40 am, just enough time for a kiss and a hug, and then I watched him walk away from me, I stood outside the car until I couldn't see him anymore, I sat in the front seat and cried for about 30 seconds, shook it off and started driving. I cried most of the drive back to my hotel. Watching him walk away wasn't easy, but I know why he is doing this. This is his dream; he is doing it for his future, for our future.

I am counting down the days until I can hold him in my arms again, if all goes according to plan that is only 56 days away. 56 long days… this has been the longest 5 days of my life so far, still waiting for his first letter. I have sent out four already, and am working on the fifth now. I plan on sending one out every day the mail runs. I have gotten a lot of advice from other army ranger girlfriends/fiancés/wives on what to send and things like that. I am sure to send plenty of encouragement I will never let him forget how wonderful I think he is, how I know that he can do this, and how proud I am of him. I have also decided that, although he bought about 10 packs of gum the day before he left, he could always use more, so I bought about 10 different flavors and stick some in each letter, I also printed off some pictures at the little photo center in wal-mart, I took it a step further and laminated them just in case and wrote on the back of each one, letting him know how much I loved him. I got these ideas from reading other blogs, made by other women who had been through this already, so thank you ladies.

this blog will be one of the ways i get through each day, so far it isn't as hard as i feared it would be, because for us, when he is done with ranger school, our happily ever after begins!! i am still amazed that all our happy things are still ahead of us, God willing. i feel lucky and blessed to have met this wonderful man, i cant wait to spend the rest of forever being silly and insanely in love with him, the best part is i know he feels the same, it is an amazing feeling.
what i call the 'purple hair tree'